Sunday, April 10, 2016

April 10, 2016 morning

I can't believe it took me this long to come up with the idea to start a blog. Two years ago when my husband was arrested I knew that he was going to prison and that we wouldn't see each other again for a long time. I started several journal type notebooks but nothing that wasn't tossed aside later. I did and still do often feel the need to talk about how I'm feeling and what I'm going through but when you're living your life one way but portraying it another way to the world it's hard to talk honestly with  anyone. I always feel like I'm being judged especially once it becomes known that my husband is in prison. Let me clarify something also, I'm not sure if it will ever matter but for honesty sake I'll tell you that my "husband" is actually my boyfriend of 10 years. Anyhow the reason I'm starting this blog is to try to keep perspective on things clearly. I'll call my husband Jimmy to protect his identity.  Jimmy gets out in five days. He was arrested nearly 2 years ago. The day he was arrested and for weeks after I was a complete wreck. Unsure of what I was going to do. How I was going to survive (emotionally not financially) without him. When you're with someone for as long as we've been together you get used to seeing them every day. Let me tell you this as well. Jimmy and I are madly deeply in love and are perfect for each other. Jimmy is the love of my life. He's made some mistakes as everyone does but he's not a dangerous criminal or a loser. He's a great guy. He's a hard worker, a man's man. He has always treated me like a queen. I'm scared that prison may have changed him and that brings me back to keeping perspective on things once he is back home. So I will be updating this blog and keeping anyone who might be reading up to date on what's what as well as giving some history as to our relationship and life in general. I hope you enjoy reading and feel free to comment or leave feedback.